Avatar.

The impact of the movie is tremendous.  Barring the groundbreaking special effects, which was to be expected from James Cameron, the film was simply beautiful.  He created a world which for some reason we could all fall in love with.  Why?  Because that is the world we used to live in before we decided it would just be easier to rape it to death.  I wanted to cry after seeing it just knowing the absolute symmetry between this and what we did to the Native Americans.  But the most important parts of the film were not the great acting, the CGI special effects, the soundtrack and sound engineering... these were all giant billboards on a cinematic highway to a forgotten place all saying "Look at the amazing ideas you fucking moron!  This is what we are supposed to be!"

The subtle themes floating around in the movie was the true beauty of the film.  Like Pandora, the life on our planet is networked, it does communicate, it does respond as a whole to what we do.  It grants miracles and takes life, it keeps us balanced.  The only problem we have is dealing with ourselves.  We are a creative/destructive force which is simultaneously separate and connected to everything around us.  I wish I could escape it.  I'd like to think we would all love to transfer to an Avatar.  To feel those real things.  To recognize ourselves as animals rather than biological computers.  To seek beauty rather than functionality and efficiency.  To see true joy rather than fleeting happiness.  To stop living to try to live forever - but rather live to be alive.

I am sad.  I don't want to be a part of this fucking machine anymore.  But where do I go?  Where can I just be an animal?  I don't know... I don't think there is a place anymore...

I watched Jesus Camp and then saw the movie Avatar in theatre tonight... 3D.  It was beyond comprehension: beautiful.  The graphics, themes, basis, plot, emergent emotions... all absolutely beautiful...  It makes me want to separate from all of these disgusting human instincts.  These destructive behaviors.  Jesus Camp was all too familiar a representation of the likeness to a cult of American Christianity.   I saw it growing up in small town Texas.  It is so destructive to the mental growth of so many children... I've seen it first hand,  it made me very sad.  Avatar offers of familiar worldview of what humanity should be: when we were undeveloped, 'uncivilized'; primal: Actually beautiful and peaceful.  I miss thinking the world is as beautiful as we thought it when I was a child.  I wish it was a reality.

Puzzles and their necessity.

I like making puzzles.

Puzzles are simply iterative algorithms played in reverse.  Like a Rubix Cube, which by knowing the algorithm used to 'reset' a rubix cube, you are very likely to solve it from any permutative state; if you knew the algorithms necessary to make organized objects such as organic molecules - even life, one could play a Rubix Cube-like game with the universe.  And that's what we are doing with science, engineering, and technology.  The interesting thing is that the universe naturally plays these perfect games with itself - by which I mean: the universe by nature produces objects with algorithms and with those new objects creates new algoriths to create even newer objects which utilize even newer algorithms ans so on. 

But what drives the universe to do such things?  Variability - Instability - Disorder.  When mother nature has a lot of legos to play with she can build many things.  And the legos she plays with are very complex and variable little objects themselves.  But as the universe builds bigger and more orderly things - they lose their variability - and the possible permutations to solve the puzzle drastically approach zero. 

What then?

Fuck. I don't know.  One, big, pointless, universe filled with big pulsing spheres or something.

I really hope we're not just a square in some god's Tuesday morning Sudoku.

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